what i wish i would remember

I've moved!

Sun, 04 Dec 2005 06:41:50 GMT

You can now find me

HERE

HERE

HERE.

Don't ya'll forget about me now.

semantic epiphany

Wed, 30 Nov 2005 03:09:23 GMT

trouble putting on toe socks

Wed, 16 Nov 2005 01:14:57 GMT

i've just spent the past 4 hours scanning photos for the first part of this book i need to do and maybe i'll actually get something done tonight eventually despite three convincing distractions and one that lives on our couch.

i ought to write things down more. i often spend the length of a shower or falling asleep formulating the perfect written paragraph in my head about one trivial thought and then i finish my shower or fall asleep and never write it down but perhaps if i did i could probably have a small book right now of terrific paragraphs about this or that or the other thing.

right now, union picnic.

sincerely,
truly,
fondly,
with love,
kat

i get to keep what nobody needs

Sun, 13 Nov 2005 04:50:27 GMT

"The last time I saw her I went to her birthday party. She called me up and said it was her birthday party and would i come and I said, 'How terrific.' It was a hotel on Broadway and 100th Street. I've never been in a place like that in my life. I've been in some pretty awful places but the lobby was really like Hades. There were people lounging around with the whites of their eyes sort of purple and their faces all somehow violety black and it was scary. The elevator was broken and so finally I decided to walk. It was the fourth floor and there were these people dead on their feet on the stairs. You had to step over about three or four people every flight. And then I came into her room. The birthday party was me and her, a whore friend of hers and her pimp, and the cake."

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 21:12:15 GMT

in which direction are we going here?

Mon, 29 Aug 2005 16:45:19 GMT

i feel rather creative today and have been running ideas through my head all morning. unfortunately for me, i'm sitting at work as i do this. and i'm sure by the time i get out of here in 6 hours i won't want to do anything. i need some superpowers....or....a new awesome job.

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 12:42:19 GMT

THIS makes no sense on so many levels.

i've had amnesia once- maybe twice.

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 23:11:50 GMT

finally purchased a bike from the guy on the corner for $30. bike lock from the real bike store? $40. well that's rather amusing now isn't it. but anyway ... jazz and i have been riding all around the city... sunday kickball in McCarren park, the greenpoint waterfront, through open fire hydrants, for a popsicle (what bird is always sad? a BLUEBIRD), to the bar for 2 games of pool and a cranberry juice. last night we rode to bryant park in midtown for an outdoor screening of jaws to relive being 8 year old ("TELL 'EM I WENT FISHIN'"). unfortunately, my bike is only a 3 speed and is not intended for long, slow inclines like for example.. the williamsburg bridge... but i eventually made it much to the dismay of my legs as i watched jazz easily pedal her shiny, brand new 21-speed bike up that stupid hill. however, i think i just found my new favorite pastime... but boy does my ass hurt.

Wed, 10 Aug 2005 04:26:47 GMT

i just didn't want to be there/here/this anymore...
so i left.

so sue me.

Sun, 17 Jul 2005 20:49:08 GMT

THIS might be the scariest thing since sliced bread.

suitable for framing

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 22:14:59 GMT

so i hate everyone today. i'm at work right now and i hate that too. i've been trying to get some sort of decent amount of sleep for the past 4 days (or the past month...whichever)..and it just doesn't seem to work out for me. yesterday was megan's brother's graduation party in longisland and we ended up getting really drunk and staying over and waking up at 6:45am to catch a train back to brooklyn (or rather, a train back to manhattan then a subway back to brooklyn, then two subways back to manhattan to work) leaving me with a solid one hour sleep. awesome. this morning i thought i was really going to die right here on this miserable sixth floor of 708 broadway, but coffee saved my life for the second time this week.

this weekend has been a test of the tri-state area's public transportation system and i think i'm going to give it a D. what should have been a two train, hour long trip to long island turned into a 4 hour, six train and two bus trip..but...we got there.

also, i found myself in south amboy, new jersey on saturday night seeing the alkaline trio with my friend jazz amidst 500 15 year old jersey girls. now you may be asking, what the fuck was i doing going to see this horrible band? and... why does this kind of music exist? well i was wondering the same thing. i think the only two reasons i could come up with were 1> i'm a really good friend doing someone a favor or 2> i'm masochistic. i think it's a little bit of both. either way, the conclusions i came to after saturday which i already knew were that jersey sucks, and alkaline trio sucks, and throwing up in penn station sucks. which brings me to friday night: aaron's going away party.

fun. lots of random people showed up. my friend DJed, i spent a lot of money. i drank a lot. and as aaron would say, the next day i felt like i woke up next to a pile of dead hookers, which is responsible for the whole debacle at penn station. i felt better after that though.
now that i've been writing this entry for 3 hours now i think i will go home now. i wouldn't be surprised if i went out tonight too like a fucking moron. we will see we will see.

bucky done gun

Fri, 10 Jun 2005 02:35:51 GMT

i haven't updated in awhile because frankly, every time i sit down to do it.. i never know where to start. but.. on the bright side,
i have a job
my horrible sunburn is slowly getting better
i don't have a boyfriend
i'm not in jail
and most importantly,
i'm still alive

i guess that's all you really need to know.
and sri lankan dance hall? awesome.

get it while you can

Tue, 24 May 2005 04:30:45 GMT

i am so bored right now it's ridiculous. i've been sitting on this stupid computer for hours now doing nothing except smoking a million cigarettes and drinking a good portion of the gallon of arizona green tea i bought yesterday.

i almost flooded the house today. that was cool.
and umm yeah... someone needs to call me.
i think i'm going to try and swallow some more dostoevsky and get my brain in order because god knows my life isn't.

up tan / dan tan

Thu, 19 May 2005 04:40:47 GMT

just got back from DC. it was okay. we're so spoiled by living in nyc it's ridiculous. trying to find food after 10pm is almost impossible, and there just isn't that much to do. i think the two highlights were going to see the ed ruscha show and the toulouse-latrec show at the national gallery of art and also finding a cool dive bar and getting trashed. greg A and greg B kept buying me drinks even thought they were lawyers in their 40s and i got to play a bunch of pool. the one thing about bars closing at 2:30 is the fact that you actually get to bed at a reasonable hour like 3 or 4, instead of drinking till 4 and sleeping at 6 or later.

tomorrow, rockland. and then.... i realllly need to find a JOB.

an acoustic faux pas

Tue, 10 May 2005 01:47:25 GMT

just got a ride back from rockland from my parents. they both came upstairs to use the bathroom but my dad ended up trying to fix my computer, which he managed to sorta do. however, i hope he missed the strip club fliers and the little card i have taped to my monitor that says "big cats are very dangerous but a little pussy won't hurt anyone!"... woops.

saw sin city while i was up in rockland. amazing. also, drove lots of people around with an expired drivers license and of course ended up in olive's both nights. went to the dmv to renew my license (my new picture is going to be awful). other than that, pretty uneventful.

tonight, free pizza with your beer at capone's and... who the fuck knows.

only the lonely

Fri, 06 May 2005 01:06:50 GMT

why oh why can i go for days without getting more than one phone call, and then all of a sudden everyone decides they're going to call me on the same night, with stuff to do no less.
i guess aaron and i are going to a couple parties and doing the cinco de mayo thing, which is really just a day with an excuse to drink a lot. as if i need one.

unsafe at any speed

Thu, 05 May 2005 00:15:52 GMT

i wish being done with school actually made me FEEL like i was done with school. i still feel like i have some assignment due tomorrow or something. it's been a long painful semester.
last night was a perfect level of drunk, an apology well accepted, making a new friend, and just a nice night in general.
due to the fact that the only things to eat around here are chinese, mexican, spanish food, and pizza, i went all the way to the city just to get some organic vegan food at angelica kitchen and it was well worth the high price and two subway rides. that place is amazing.

and i really need to make myself a new icon.. i'm sick of looking at my stupid little kid face.

thank you.

Thu, 28 Apr 2005 01:04:41 GMT

an update is soon to be in order. in the meantime, i'm condemned to a personal hell of un-inspiration, bad grades, loneliness and school work.

the stuff you huff

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 04:52:13 GMT

so...portfolio proved to be a bit disappointing. but.. oh well. it was a great morning anyway. i do not feel relieved at all, however... i still have a shitload of work to do for all my classes and i can consider this weekend to be null and void as far as getting work done. all i want to do is spend hours in the darkroom at school and print pictures all day. oops...wrong major. i can't wait till it's all over.
and yes ..i am listening to the beach boys. don't hate.

smoky liquid lunch

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 15:58:29 GMT

so... i handed in my portfolio about 3 hours ago. finished about 5am, haven't slept yet. what's the first thing we did when we got back to brooklyn? got beer of course. it's always funny explaining to the deli guy why you are buying 2 24's and a 6 pack at 10 in the morning on a tuesday. i pick my portfolio up at 7....let's see how i do.

say it ain't so

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 00:34:54 GMT

thursday night in it's most beautiful form made me terribly nostalgic though i'm not sure what about. when i got off the subway my walk home was 6 blocks too short of figuring it out.

subway rides become awkward when you sit across from someone you encounter often, but never has acknowledged your presence. and still has not.
parties are awkward when everyone there are people i've "seen around" for about 7 years... but never actually had conversations with. and still haven't.
and it's always amazing to me that i can stay out having only an "okay" time until 6am.

i know i've fallen into something special, but i'm not quite sure how it will end up in the big picture of things, or exactly how to deal with everything it involves, or how temporary it will be. it seems to me a lot of things have been beginning and ending all at the same time and there are a million pieces flying in the air and i have no idea how to put them together, which ones to discard, which ones to keep.

to update a little, last friday i went to crobar to see sasha & digweed spin, VIP-style all expenses paid. amid enjoying myself far too much, i managed to lose almost all my personal belongings including:
my jacket
cell phone
metrocard
credit card
ID
fake id
$30

the only thing i was able to recover 3 days later was my cell phone, which happened to be the only thing i cared about, so...all is good. losing my fake id was probably the best thing that has happened to me, because now i will actually stay home and do work for the next couple weeks with no choice. also, due to a horrible conversation and a horrible slip-up at the neighborhood bar, i think i'll make myself sparse there as well for a little while.
i would love to go take a nap in my bed but there's an abby in it.

Fri, 08 Apr 2005 18:52:54 GMT

i don't know why but i find this funny.

Tue, 05 Apr 2005 19:39:50 GMT

oh wait.. just kidding.
more on this later.

get a grip

Tue, 05 Apr 2005 02:57:01 GMT

i think i'm back to normal now.
more on this later.

now my girl you're so young and so pretty.. and one thing i know is true..you'll be dead bfore your

Mon, 28 Mar 2005 05:55:41 GMT

the burlington/rochester boys were here this weekend. i went a lot of places, took a lot of pictures, and pretty much can take this weekend and throw it in the garbage as far as productiveness goes. but that's ok. friday night i passed out on the couch with all clothes on including shoes...and last night i stayed in harlem and we piled three of us + a pitbull into paul's bed. i'll be looking forward to sleeping like a normal person tonight. easter dinner at paul's consisted of the 8 of us, a 62 dollar ham, potatoes au gratin, and cheesecake.
i register tomorrow at 9:30am.
now, i shower.